I came to ‘Primalville’ in June of ‘ninety-nine.
Although I held a job – my life was just a mime!
The world in which I lived, the people that I knew
Treated me the same as a Nazi treats a Jew.
 

Feelings, I learned to hide, before the age of five
Show any emotion, I won’t be kept alive!
All my early training had taught me just one thing
Mother was a sadist with only hate to bring.

As I went through the motions living like a man,
 The house of my life was valued less than a van!
Nothing that I tried could give me any pleasure,
Just relief from all my Pain, easing of pressure.

Despite all the baggage my parents dumped on me
I never gave up hope that someday I'd be free!
The world can crash around me, destroy all I own
But it can not defeat me, now I am not alone.

A three-week intensive – but so little progress
Defences that I’d built were stronger than a fortress!
Strong enough to save me from a drunkard mother
Now they’re turned against me like a vengeful brother.

Now a full year later and progress has begun
Feelings leek out slowly; at last I glimpse the Sun!
Buried deep inside me still hide Anger and Rage
 But now I’m free to search for Love on Life’s next Page.

Fifty years have passed since the day I dared be born
And now I greet in earnest every new day’s dawn!
Despite Pain that's hidden that someday I must feel
Today I take much pleasure from a simple meal.

Closer now the terrors of my early childhood
The Pain pushed aside as in fear of her I stood!
The terror of suppression nearly cost my life
It left me isolated, no family, no wife.

Unfamiliar feelings show there is much learn
And now to be more Human is the thing I yearn!
Good health was my only friend for too many years
Now I’m free to liberate all those hidden fears.

The next step in my life is still a mystery
To change lifetime goals now at last my mind is free
I need lasting friendships which on true feelings build
A life based on real truth not mom's insanity!