I came to ‘Primals-Ville’ in June of ‘ninety-nine.
Although I held a job – my life was just a mime!
I lived in a world where the people that I knew
Would treat me the same way a Nazi treats a Jew.

I hid all my feelings before the age of five
Show an emotion and I wouldn’t be kept alive!
All my early training had taught me just one thing
Mother was a sadist with only hate to bring.

I went through all the motions living like a man,
 The house of my life was worth less than a van!
Nothing that I tried would ever give me pleasure,
Just relief from Pain and easing of the pressure.

Despite all the baggage my parents dumped on me
I never gave up hope; someday I will be free!
The world can crash around me, destroy all I own
But it cann’t defeat me; I’m no longer alone.

The three-week intensive – made so little progress
Defences that I’d built were a towering fortress!
Strong enough to save me from that drunkard mother
Now they’re turned against me like a vengeful brother.

A full year later and the progress has begun
Feelings leek out slowly; at last I glimps the Sun!
Buried deep inside me fester Anger and Rage
 But now I’m free to search for Love on Life’s next Page.

Fifty years have passed from the day I dared be born
And now I greet in earnest each new day’s dawn!
Despite the Pain I know that someday I must feel
Today I can take pleasure from a simple meal.

Much closer now are the terrors of my childhood
The Pain pushed aside as in fear of her I stood!
The cost of their suppression nearly was my life
It left me isolated, no family, no wife.

Unfamiliar feelings show so much new to learn
And now to be more Human is the thing I yearn!
Good health was my only friend for too many years
But now I’m free to liberate those hidden tears.

The next step in my life is still a mystery
To change my lifetime goals now that my mind is free
I need more lasting friendships on true feelings build
A life that’s based on truth and Love that will not wilt